Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I dont care bout this blog or anything related to it so im not bothered to change its skin or update it regularly...
I just felt like blogging.. so this will probably one of my rare posts...
My tests are over, I didnt score that well or at least not up to my parents expectations so I swore that I would change my ways. Ive been doing my work regularly and stuff but I doubt that will help improve my grades much.. My younger bro is not doing well with his chinese and when I look at him it reminds me of my past and its realli painful to see a holiday being transformed into a study camp.. Is it wrong not to achieve greatness? It seems that even if my brothers and I can do well in exams and stuff, I dont realli want this intelligence, its actually much easier being blissfully ignorant of studies and life itself. Maybe Intelligence is a good thing, but whats the use of being smart and carrying the burden of tests and homework? If I showed to my parents that i didnt have the potential in me, my life might have been easier... The greatest mistake ive made was to score well in primary 1, and I realli hate it...
Come to think of it, if i wasnt smart, i wouldnt be typing all of this, maybe im being naive into believing that intelligence is a curse but I dont care. My life is changing too drastically and I cant seem to cope with studies, peer pressure and gaming.
The biggest question Ive asked myself was, "Is intelligence a curse or blessing?"
Why am I so worried bout my results? Is it becos of my parents or sth inside me that wants to achieve? I cant tell and i know that the happiness from tests are always shortlived, they wont last more than 4 months. I know this blog is dead and thats why its perfect for me to use it now. souless boy | 8:24 AM